I have just put Tallulah to bed, we have been at my Dad's for dinner so we got back late, she was tired, so quickly whipped her pyjamas on and gave her a feed with the ComfortZone music playing. She seemed a little uncomfortable falling asleep in my arms so i laid her in her cot, switched off the light and sat back in the chair.
As she was murmuring herself off to sleep I looked out the window at the starry sky and then accross the room to silhouette of the cot.
I had an overwhelming heartwrenching explosion of love for my baby, earth and all humanity, and a longing to be a baby myself, back in my own Mother's arms. A part of my life, that I miss so much, that child to mother relationship that is so incredible, I love my mother beyond words, and I wish to be small again, curled up in her bed hearing her heart beating as I sleep.
I felt so small, looking out at the sky, the cycle of life is so wonderous. I thought about all the other Mother's past, present and future and those magical bed time moments of laying your baby to sleep. It has been before, it is now, and will always happen.
Other times, I find myself getting anxious about the planet and what we humans have become. I felt safe looking out the window at the stars with Tallulah drifting into sleep.....you and me....I make the world safe for you right now. I will always do my best to make the earth a better place for her, sharing love, light and sensitivity. We are all part of a cycle and we, as individuals have the power to create a harmonious planet, if we all join in.
Night Night x x x
(off to ice some carrot cupcakes....)
this is so beautiful pops XX
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