quick post!

Quick little post before bed...sleep is calling!

Everything is well, been feeling a bit up and down emotionally the last few weeks, feeling so happy and then tired and run down the next! Max has been coming and going a lot which might have something to do with it (not his fault though)!

I think my return to work has lost its novelty a bit haha, didn't really want to go today as Tallulah was a bit under the weather yesterday and i felt stressed to say the least by the end of the day! Didn't want to leave her this morning :-(

Just eaten half a packet of giant chocolate buttons, yum, ate the other half last night! Chocolate is my downfall in the evening!

Tallulah has also just out of the blue started sleeping through the night in her own cot in her own room! No-more co-sleeping and restless nights, just like that! Wow, feel very proud of her! We are on tooth number 6 now, this one has been giving her a bit of jip!

No more time, my face must rest on my pillow....mustn't let myself play AngryBirds on my phone first, i'll never go to sleep!

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Mmmmmm the nappies are blowing on the line, the house is fairly-ish tidy and Tallulah is snoozing away in my arms while I attempt to blog! It has been a while and I am not sure why exactly, I have been quite distracted with life, I even forgot I had a blog! I haven't felt 100% on top of everything recently which always ends up in me feeling like life is spiraling out of control, I think this has something to do with my mild obsessive compulsive behaviour!
I really want so much to be one of those people who has the perfect balance, washing done & put away, tidy clean house, delicious homemade food at every meal and most importantly quality time with my husband and Tallulah, but in reality life is never quite like this, and I need to accept that is totally okay!
But, because I want all these things there is a bit of me that reacts in a way that i don't like! I procastinate and sort of waste a day not really accomplishing much, instead of being procative and sorting what needs sorting, and then I can feel quite angry at myself for being this way. I can change it, I need to accept firstly that I cannot get everything super perfect (far far far from it) and just make some little changes like planning meals/cleaning at opportune moments like when Tallulah is having a nap etc. I think one of the factors is Max's job is so unpredictable, he seems to be away at all the good times like evenings and weekends. I haven gotten used to it now after 6 years of being together, but it still doesn't make it any easier. I think the adjustment of the coming and goings still stumps me!


Moaning over. In other news....
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Tallulah is now 8 and a half months and is a rather delightful handful! Last night she was cavorting around the living room stark naked resembling a naughty little gnome, she is most entertaining! Sleep is getting easier, she doesn't sleep in our bed half as much now, and sometimes will fall asleep IN the cot shock horror! It is as if she is starting to understand and get a grip on the falling asleep process now and it is wonderful to get that first half of the night in her own bed at least! - here she is emptying my bag!

She has 5 teeth now too, and they make her look quite different! She has a lovely big gap in between the top front teeth, like I did, and her Father too! She is really is a handful in a good way, constantly fiddling and exploring so i can't take my eyes off her for long! We now have a stairgate at the top of the stairs and accross our living room, as her favouite pastimes at the moment are hands down the toilet and licking shoes! Also, she can now stand up for a good 10 seconds on her own....eeeek!


I returned to work last monday and tuesday, I was very anxious about being separated from Tallulah and worried it was too soon to leave her, but it was actually great! Tallulah loves being with my Mum, and I got lots of updates ,she even brought her to me at lunchtime for a feed on both days! It was so lovely to see everyone at work and the children, and so refreshing to do something a bit different for a few hours and be me! Going home after school finished to Tallulah was an amazing feeling too,so all in all, a definite WIN WIN.

Little Hooly has woken up now, so I will sign off my post for today! Hope you don't think I whinged to much at the begining!!