Sewing Machine

For my birthday this year (september 6th) my Mummy bought me a sewing machine! I love making things, but am not that good at it hahah but love the process of creating! I have never had a sewing machine before and I am absolutely in love with it! It took me a while to work out how to even set it up and thread the bobin etc haha but i have persevered and have been trying lots of things out and having an awesome time when Tallulah is in bed!

I got given some cool books too for my birthday with lots of creat

ion ideas in! One of them is called 'make your own misfits' and it is full of little creatures to make out of old socks and clothes etc, this iswhat i have been mostly making so far!!

Here are a few of my creations! Most of them given away as pressies!! the 3rd photo is a case for an amazon kindle which was Max's Mums Bday present!

Bed Time Thoughts...

I just had a moment;

I have just put Tallulah to bed, we have been at my Dad's for dinner so we got back late, she was tired, so quickly whipped her pyjamas on and gave her a feed with the ComfortZone music playing. She seemed a little uncomfortable falling asleep in my arms so i laid her in her cot, switched off the light and sat back in the chair.

As she was murmuring herself off to sleep I looked out the window at the starry sky and then accross the room to silhouette of the cot.

I had an overwhelming heartwrenching explosion of love for my baby, earth and all humanity, and a longing to be a baby myself, back in my own Mother's arms. A part of my life, that I miss so much, that child to mother relationship that is so incredible, I love my mother beyond words, and I wish to be small again, curled up in her bed hearing her heart beating as I sleep.

I felt so small, looking out at the sky, the cycle of life is so wonderous. I thought about all the other Mother's past, present and future and those magical bed time moments of laying your baby to sleep. It has been before, it is now, and will always happen.

Other times, I find myself getting anxious about the planet and what we humans have become. I felt safe looking out the window at the stars with Tallulah drifting into sleep.....you and me....I make the world safe for you right now. I will always do my best to make the earth a better place for her, sharing love, light and sensitivity. We are all part of a cycle and we, as individuals have the power to create a harmonious planet, if we all join in.

Night Night x x x

(off to ice some carrot cupcakes....)

11 months old

So, Miss Tallully-bell is 11 months old already, the summer has most definitely flown!

We spent the begining of the summer camping in a mongolian yurt and tipi in Norfolk in celebration of my Dad's 50th birthday! Max was able to come for 2 days, but the rest of the holiday was Tallulah and I, my two brothers and their girlfriends, and of course, my Dad and Jo.

Tallulah and I shared the yurt with my Dad and Jo, and it was a really lovely experience being all together! It was

surprisingly warm in the

yurt for the most part due to the cosy woodburning stove in the middle! We spent most of the week eating eggy soldiers for breakfast in the cafe and walks on the

beach. One day we braced the Go Ape assault course in Thetford, I overcame my fear of heights with a lot of "Aaaaaaggggghhhhhs" it was great fun!

before and after..... FTW Tallulah watched Go Ape safely on the ground with Nanny Jo!

quick post!

Quick little post before bed...sleep is calling!

Everything is well, been feeling a bit up and down emotionally the last few weeks, feeling so happy and then tired and run down the next! Max has been coming and going a lot which might have something to do with it (not his fault though)!

I think my return to work has lost its novelty a bit haha, didn't really want to go today as Tallulah was a bit under the weather yesterday and i felt stressed to say the least by the end of the day! Didn't want to leave her this morning :-(

Just eaten half a packet of giant chocolate buttons, yum, ate the other half last night! Chocolate is my downfall in the evening!

Tallulah has also just out of the blue started sleeping through the night in her own cot in her own room! No-more co-sleeping and restless nights, just like that! Wow, feel very proud of her! We are on tooth number 6 now, this one has been giving her a bit of jip!

No more time, my face must rest on my pillow....mustn't let myself play AngryBirds on my phone first, i'll never go to sleep!

!

Mmmmmm the nappies are blowing on the line, the house is fairly-ish tidy and Tallulah is snoozing away in my arms while I attempt to blog! It has been a while and I am not sure why exactly, I have been quite distracted with life, I even forgot I had a blog! I haven't felt 100% on top of everything recently which always ends up in me feeling like life is spiraling out of control, I think this has something to do with my mild obsessive compulsive behaviour!
I really want so much to be one of those people who has the perfect balance, washing done & put away, tidy clean house, delicious homemade food at every meal and most importantly quality time with my husband and Tallulah, but in reality life is never quite like this, and I need to accept that is totally okay!
But, because I want all these things there is a bit of me that reacts in a way that i don't like! I procastinate and sort of waste a day not really accomplishing much, instead of being procative and sorting what needs sorting, and then I can feel quite angry at myself for being this way. I can change it, I need to accept firstly that I cannot get everything super perfect (far far far from it) and just make some little changes like planning meals/cleaning at opportune moments like when Tallulah is having a nap etc. I think one of the factors is Max's job is so unpredictable, he seems to be away at all the good times like evenings and weekends. I haven gotten used to it now after 6 years of being together, but it still doesn't make it any easier. I think the adjustment of the coming and goings still stumps me!


Moaning over. In other news....
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Tallulah is now 8 and a half months and is a rather delightful handful! Last night she was cavorting around the living room stark naked resembling a naughty little gnome, she is most entertaining! Sleep is getting easier, she doesn't sleep in our bed half as much now, and sometimes will fall asleep IN the cot shock horror! It is as if she is starting to understand and get a grip on the falling asleep process now and it is wonderful to get that first half of the night in her own bed at least! - here she is emptying my bag!

She has 5 teeth now too, and they make her look quite different! She has a lovely big gap in between the top front teeth, like I did, and her Father too! She is really is a handful in a good way, constantly fiddling and exploring so i can't take my eyes off her for long! We now have a stairgate at the top of the stairs and accross our living room, as her favouite pastimes at the moment are hands down the toilet and licking shoes! Also, she can now stand up for a good 10 seconds on her own....eeeek!


I returned to work last monday and tuesday, I was very anxious about being separated from Tallulah and worried it was too soon to leave her, but it was actually great! Tallulah loves being with my Mum, and I got lots of updates ,she even brought her to me at lunchtime for a feed on both days! It was so lovely to see everyone at work and the children, and so refreshing to do something a bit different for a few hours and be me! Going home after school finished to Tallulah was an amazing feeling too,so all in all, a definite WIN WIN.

Little Hooly has woken up now, so I will sign off my post for today! Hope you don't think I whinged to much at the begining!!

Tallulah Bluebell is 7 months!

An update is most definitely in order! The longer I leave it, the more there is to tell and more time needed to write!

Tallulah has finally nodded off for the night, and I am quickly grabbing the bull by the horns and doing a quick little post before bed, i think i have a few minutes before my eyes close into dreamland!

This is going to be a Hooly McHooly-Muffin Tuffin Scruffin post. Miss Tallulah Bluebell is now a whopping 7 months and a few weeks old, and my my is she a wonderful busy little banana, she is keeping me on my toes! As i wrote before she has started crawling and has been now or the past month, she is getting quite fast in her determination to get about! Also, 2 weeks ago she starting pulling herself up to standing in the cot/furniture/people and now this is the new best game ever, she spends most of her time standing at the bookcase and sofa investigating Dvd players and remote controls, i keep trying to tempt her to come and play stacking cups/read books but the ipod audio cable is much more appealing.

One not nice thing is that she keeps wanting to suck on shoes. Max usually leaves his by the back door and I put them away in the downstairs bathroom when I see them, but on a few occasions when Max has been about more and I haven't been quick enough, she gets his dirty shoes that he has been tramping about in London for the past 6 months and manages to give them a good licking by the time i dive accross the room and take them away!

Oh well, all good for the immune system...

Tallulah has got more hair now, which is lovely and tufty and accompanied by two little sharp bottom teeth! The week they came through was slightly hellish to say the least. This week has been pretty rocky too with a top tooth 'winking' at us through her swollen gum! Some babies appear to sail through the teething phase, popping teeth out willy nilly without a grumble, but we seem to experience exactly the opposite, poor little Tallulah Berry. She sobs, shuts her mouth tight, refues boob and food, wrings her hands, pulls her ears, wakes every night hour & generally cries most of the day/night. Now i know that this is what is going on I am thoroughly prepared with homeopathy, love & a warm Mummy bed!

She sleeps in our bed 90% of the time anyway though.

One of my favourite things at the moment, is when she is accross the other side of the room and crawls up to me with a massive toothy smile and her innocent bright sparkling eyes, best thing ever....

off to cuddle her now.

night night

Lurgy, Crawling, Church Farm & Bloggers Block

So much has been happening the past few weeks, I have been meaning to post nearly every day but I just seem to fall into my bed at the end of it!

Firstly, we have been the house of 'lurgy'! Tallulah caught a virus which started as a funny rash accompanied with a fever and a horrid cough. Miss Bluebell wasn't a fan of being poorly and this was her first cough ever and I think the physicalities of coughing confused her greatly and she cried after each cough because it hurt :-(

I joined in the lurgy shortly after with really aching joints and a swollen knee which seemed quite random. I felt really run down by the end of the week and low on energy so felt a bit needy myself, Max came home about then luckily phew!

The exciting thing which has come out of being at home and playing on the floor all week is that Tallulah is geting to grips with this crawling malarky, bit earlier than i had expected but i am very proud!

What she does is lean over almost immediately when you sit her on the floor and goes onto all fours, she rocks back and forth and does a couple of little crawls and then collapses! Then she pushes herself up again and does it again, she can turn round 360 on all fours, balance on one hand holding a toy, and stop herself from falling when sitting up.

Also if she wants a toy, she will find a way to get it, either by rolling, pulling herself, sliding herself on our wooden floor, turning, twisting, doing a few crawls, she manages to get it! I keep finding her the other side of our rug and under the curtains all the time!

She has been renamed Hooly the Hooligan. I love her so unbearably much it is indescribable. When I look at her I am just filled with satisfaction and light up inside, she is the best thing I have ever looked at ever!

She really is a Hooly, her personality is really starting to shine through and I am constantly surprised by little things she does, she is fun, and not to mention tiring.....I feel constantly tired!

Tallulah has managed to get hold of my mobile phone and suck the life out of it. It kind of works but the buttons don't so I can't actually use it or read any text messages etc. Hmmm I can't really afford to buy a new phone and think that the phone companies are ripping us all off massively! I might just go and get one of those really cheapy ones to last me, I have a 2 year contract so have a whole year to wait until I can upgrade.

Recently Tallulah and I visited Church Farm, where they have rare breed farm animals and other lovely fluffies like bunnies and such. You can pet a lot of the animals and they are very tame, I am a huge animal lover so I was in heaven! Iwould love a pet pig!

The tea shop serves cakes and tea on cath kidston crockery which is lush and they have a sweet little shop with cath kidston cups and childrens toys etc.

Tallulah had a lovely day and even touched a sheep!

They had some piglets who kept eating my sandals and licking my feet, I secretly

really enjoyed it as they

were so snuffly and delightful!

tired.

Gardening Weekend & Visit from Alessandra!

Max and I finally tackled the garden this weekend. This makes me want to squeal 'yay' whenever I think about it!

We weeded, filled in the bunny warrens, picked up lots of dead leaves and bits of rubbishy cardboard and planted some new plants we bought from our local garden centre. Max also mowed the lawn for the first time with his lawn mower my Mum bought him last year!

My Dad came round too on sunday to give us a lovely wooden outside table and 8 chairs which he got for free from work, it is very fabulicious and we are very grateful! I cannot wait until the weather gets warm and we can BBQ away! We have never had our own BBQ before in our garden so this is a very exciting event.

Tallulah is 6 months old today, Wow, this is amazing and something that I find hard to sink in! She is the most awesome little person and I can't even remember life before her, what did I even do with my time hehe?

She is sitting up awesomely on her own and plays really sweetly and cutely with her toys, I find this totally amazing! Tallulah gives me so much joy, it is such a pleasure being her Mummy! Her favourite things to play with at the moment are little teething toys, board books, anything colourful and crinkly and the television remote!
I love the way her little hands reach out, the way her fingers fan out to grab the thing that she wants, can't resist kissing her ALL the time...heh!

Dra came to visit us today! Yay! She arrived all fresh and breezy this morning after catching the train and walking! I was so excited to see her and spend the day just us (and miss tallulah!). Tallulah and I were still in our PJ's and we made fried eggs and beans on toast yum yum, with fresh coffee! We decided on having a foody eating day, we finished off some chocolate cupcakes I made a few days ago and Dra started watching my New Moon Dvd while T and I got dressed. Ahh the joys of Twilight, I could watch/read it over and over again! We had a lovely chilled day watching crap on tv (which we do when we get together because our other halves don't really want to watch it with us!) and eating chocolate hot cross buns and lots of cups of tea! Tallulah got lots of special attention from Dra which she loved! We then went to the chip shop haha and got chips and pineapple fritters! Tallulah had a little nap so we spread out on the sofa and chomped our way through those! Then some cadburys mini eggs! We did some dancing about to the ipod and I made some fairy cakes for a friend's baby shower tomorrow....shhhhh secret squirrel! It is such a pleasure just being the company of Dra, we just click on the perfect level and there is nothing to hide! I find myself being so utterly honest about myself with her and it is very refreshing to be silly and completely yourself! We even attempted some yoga on the yoga channel, well Tallulah and I watched Dra haha, my tummy was rather full of chips.

And then she had to go...booo! But she came back very soon last time so hopefully it won't be too long until we get to be together soon! I want to go up to Derby and visit when the weather gets warmer, yes yes yes!

50,000 biscuits later...

I am feeling a bit random this evening, and finding my thoughts amusing. This could be due to the serious amount of sugar I have consumed today. An entire (-1) packet of choco libenz chocolate orange biscuits, hot chocolate + the works, and a quater of an apple pie with custard and a 900 cups of tea made by my lovely Grandma, plus the usual 3 large meals. Woah yeah.

I have to write about a slightly traumatic experience that happened yesterday after baby group. I decided to go through the car wash. When i was little I had a little phobia of the car wash, i didn't trust the washers and my vivid imagination imagined that they would go out of control and crush our car with their fuzzy brushiness. So I always used to get out and watch, just in case this happened.

As it happens, my car was pretty dirty, and I wanted to take it looking nice and shiny for it's m.o.t today, so I decided to brave the car wash as an independent woman with my babe sleeping peacefully in the back.

I pulled up at the front, feeling slightly nervous as my thoughts wandered back to childhood. A man comes over and I can't even get my electric window down so I have to actually open the door to pay him, quite embarassing. Then he waves me forward and gives me some instructions which I just do not get and he is being very polite and gesturing 'clutch down', which I finally understand and do, off to a cringeworthy start.

It is all happening, I am moving forward on the conveyorbelt into the car wash of doom, I have to admit I am feeling quite tense.

Everything gets going with its whooshing and squirting and the brushes are coming straight at me. Suddenly Tallulah starts yelling really loudly and I spin round to the back seat to find the window open slightly and a MASSIVE blue brush poking in the window and water squirting all over Tallulah who was previously peacefully asleep! Panic! Panic! My nightmare was happening, I tried to do up the window but then opened it instead, more water and brush...arggh! I finally managed to do it up and calmed Tallulah down, she literally woke up to insanity happening at the window and was very rightly upset, and wet.

It was finally over. I went to accelerate out and the car felt a bit weird. I pulled off at the roundabout and the pedal just wasn't going down and I was driving a nice 8mph with cars behind. Nooo the car wash has broken my car I thought. I pulled over and realised my car mat had got wedged up behind the pedal in my panic of open windows and giant blue brushes.

I am an actual nightmare.

Walkies on the Beach

Yesterday (Sunday) was a very fine day in terms of the weather, bright, sunny and warm. After lunch we decided to go for a walk on the beach at Old Hunstanton, Tallulah's first trip to meet the Sea, apart from when she visited a few times in my tummy! I love going to the seaside, and walking along the beach and paying homage to the sea, it makes me feel complete and whole.

I had the wrong footwear on as I had expected the sand to be quite firm that day for some odd reason, but it wasn't, so it concluded in soggy swimmy sea water sock feet which was okay as i sort of got used to it after a bit! Tallulah was very alert and intrigued by all the sights and sounds, she was looking around and taking it all in, I think the salty wind made her eyes water a bit, which she didn't seem to like much!

The sea was absolutely stunning that day, calm and shimmery. We all felt like we were in a movie or something. Max and I both agreed we could of sat on a chair on the shore all day just staring at the sea. Our soggy feet had other ideas though so we walked a bit more and headed back to the sand dunes where we had a sit down, it didn't last too long as Tallulah was trying to eat fistfuls of sand.

On the way home I felt like we all had some really good quality time. This baby malarky is totally awesome, but it has been hard at times adjusting to not always being able to be together when we want,like we used to, now for example, one of us is usually holding/playing with Tallulah or she is asleep in the middle of the bed or something. Tallulah is the most incredible gift into our lives that we could of ever asked for, but one day becoming 3 can be quite a shock to the system, no matter how prepared you think you are!

Anyway, back to quality time. Yes, we had such a laugh all day, and the journey in the car was good fun. I think we talked about the New Moon film and the actors for a bit, as we like to anaylze things, which is not a good thing because most often than not, as soon as we leave from visiting a friend/family's house we go "was I okay? did I do anything to offend anyone?" and go through our behaviour to make sure we did alright.

When we got back, we got chips from the chip shop, fried up some eggs from Max's Mum's chickens, warmed up some baked beans, and ate some nice dinner! Then we pulled out the sofa bed, got the quilt, glass of red wine, New Moon DVD, warmed up a treacle tart and double cream and the three of us got cosy.

Naughty Rabbitss

I think I might have the most naughtiest bunnies in the whole world. Mindy (see above) and her new boyfriend Denzel are slowly wreaking havoc in our garden.

They have got a groovy humdinger of a hutch my Dad built which they live in, but they also have free reign of the garden. Basically as soon as I get up I go and let them out. They love frolicking about the garden and getting up to mischief, and I mean mischief...Together they have dug a few holes, which I was okay with, Max just filled them up again.

I was looking out of Tallulah's bedroom window last week, and who did I see partying on down in the neighbour's garden? Why yes...Mindy and Denzel. Denzel actually made eye contact with me would you believe it. I thought that it was this minor hole that they kept re-digging up, but oh no. On closer inspection and going round the neighbours house to get them, I saw they had actually dug a tunnel going into the middle of her garden. A TUNNEL. A proper bonafied 1.5m tunnel. I was horrified and extremely apologetic to the neighbour who was very nice in fact. I filled up the hole on my side with some bits and bobs like old plant pots until I could do it properly. Next day....where are those bunnies? They had dug all the pots out and gone to play next door again!

They have also eaten every flower/plant nice pretty thing in the garden and dug up all the flowerbeds. Also in their tunnel making are piles of soil on the grass which is killing it.

I love them having their freedom as I hate to see an animal caged, but my garden is pretty trashed. So......My Dad has constructed a rather large run so I can contain them a bit in the garden. It is really cool actually, so excited when he put it together and I put the bunnies in all filled with enthusiasm.

10 minutes later, Denzel has jumped over the top. This thing is twice the height of him and more. Back to the drawing board. A few more holes dug and flowers eaten later my dad comes back with some bendy green trellisy flower boarder thing which he slots in the top to make it a bit higher. Yay i thought, he came round and did it today in the wind and the rain. It seems to have done the trick, Denzel has attempted to scale it but not succeeded yet, he is one determined guy. So Tallulah and I were watching them in it from the patio doors, and what do i see? Oh...Denzel destroying the grass digging ferociously trying to dig his way underneath. A massive clump of grass had been uprooted by the time i intervened 5 seconds later. I am in despair, I put the run round the cage for the time being on the patio which limits their space, but until I think of something else...it wil have to do. Eeek! Rabbit Despair.....!!!!

New Moon & Sade

First off....The New Moon dvd slid through the letterbox this morning, exciting stuff! I am such a cheesemonger but i asbolutely LOVE the twilight sage! I am not on team Edward or team Jacob, I will take both please!

Have been watching the 'extras' disc on and of

f throughout the day as well as listening to the new Sade album - Soldier of Love, i am really enjoying it. There is a beautiful song called 'Baby Father' and the lyrics are stunning, Max and I were playing it last night and it made us feel very emotional as it felt like she was singing about us! Here are the lyrics -

We were waiting for the bus,

No-one much around but us

Then I see this young boy cut a look at me,

I'm stunned, in a daze

He had the whole street set ablaze

It's only love they say, Makes you feel this way

She liked his eyes, she wanted more

The baby gonna have your smile for sure

He saw a lovely girl, smelling sweet and soapy like fresh air

She saw him looking acted like she didn't care

That's how we knew

And so love grew a flower

A flower that is you

Your daddy knows you're a flame

Your daddy knows you're a flame

Your daddy knows you're a flame

Your daddy knows you're a flame

Even to the angels it may sound like a lie

For you child, he has the troops and extra backup standing by, For you child, for you he's the best he can be

For you child, for you he's the best he can be

Oh child don't you know

Your daddy love come with a life time guarantee

Your daddy knows you're a flame

Your daddy knows you're a flame

Yeah daddy love you child

Daddy love you yeah

It's only you he'll say

Made the young boy hungry for the man he is today

It's only love, love, love, love

Can make you feel this way

Your daddy knows you're a flame

I am listening again to it now :-) Here is a link to listen to the song http://www.last.fm/music/Sade/_/Babyfather

Max came home last night and met me at his brother Harry's house whom i was having dinner with, and Maxs lovely Mum Barbara. He looked all lovely and hunky and I just feel so in love with him. He has a gig tonight, a late one so he will be home about 3am, Tallulah and I will be waiting, taking up the whole bed hehe!

More posts later

x

My 1st Mothering Sunday!

A quick post before bed! I am struggling a bit with Tallulah & bed times so going to quickly post before getting some much needed sleep before she wakes me up...that subject is for another day though.....!

I had a thoroughly splendid 'Happy 1st Mothers Day' and enjoyed it very much! The night before I became a baking maniac and was baking cupcakes until about 11.30pm, I have these mad moments where I get a bit carried away. Lovely Max was taking care of Tallulah and he didn't even gasp in horror at the utter carnage in the kitchen haha, there is literally pink icing, butter and icing sugar on most of the things on display in the kitchen....

I made rose cupcakes (with rosewater) and chocolate orange cupcakes with orange cream icing!

Usually a lot of things I make have some sort of disaster during the making which involves a bit of upset and a bit of fixing. This time I burnt the dark chocolate and it went all weird and gloopy, but i carried on regardless and the end result tasted pretty darn good.

On Mothers Day Max's parents came round for coffee and cakes in the morning. Barbara makes the most heavenly carrot cake I have ever tasted, to prove this i will tell you that I ate a quarter of it without hesitation for breakfast this morning. We had a lovely time together and Tallulah was in a happy mood which was a bonus! My Dad also popped in to screw together a rabbit run for our bunnies in the garden! This was my mothers day present from him :-)

We had to dash off to to my Aunties for Mother's Day lunch at 1pm which is about 50 mins away in the car, my grandparents, cousinss, brothers etc were all there. We Had a lovely shepherds pie followed by about a thousand puddings, there was a small upset where my Aunties' chunky black labrador ate 6 cupcakes off the cake stand in the larder that my cousin Cate had made....ohhhh Hector!

After this some of the family went off to walk the dog whose tummy was full of cakes, and we watched some larkrise to candleford with my grandma, cousin and brothers. Then Max drove us home where we got cosy!

Tallulah & Max gave me a beautiful silver locket and chain which I absolutely adore, and felt very romantic. There was a love note inside which he had written saying 'Me and Hooly (Tallulah) love you more than words can say'. I feel very lucky and overwhelmed with emotion to have recieved such a beautiful gift from such a beautiful man and daughter.

Mother's day has taken on another dimension of meaning to me and Max this year, as we are really starting to know first hand just what it means to be a parent, I love my Mum so much that it is almost too intense to feel sometimes, in her card i wrote ' you have given me two things, one is roots, the other wings..' which completely sums it all up. Max loves his Mum just as intensely too and we both love each others parents a lot, so it is all just a one big bundle of love really!

Mum's present did luckily arrive in time, and i left a little display on her kitchen table when she was out:-) hehe! She also gave me some gifts which were very unexpected and awesome, she knows me better than I do sometimes! A Primrose Hill bakery cookbook and LuLu perfume, which my Mum used to wear when I was little, it instills a homely comforting, nostalgic memory of that time in my being and the way my Mother smelled, and now I get to wear it too!

Agggh I am a bit anxious my Mum's Mothers Day pressie isn't going to arrive on time! Positive visualisations of it arriving tomorrow morning..... :-)

Had a relaxingly lovely day today. This morning was at Mum's house for the Baby Reflex class part 2, which was excellent! We were learning about the digestive still and the spinal area! We also learnt the brazillian toe technique which is a secret reflexology energiser move! I didn't know it already so I am glad my Mum taught me as now I can do it on my clients too as well as Tallulah!

After a pain au chocolate and coffee I dashed to Willingham to pick up a baby bargain item off gumtree! Popped to my friend Claire's who lives in the village and we ate more pastries and had good chats! She also gave me a buttons bracelet she had just made which is gorgeous!

Part of the way home you have to drive down quite a narrow, bumpy, windy road next to the river which I can't stand! I get a bit panicky which results in me driving quite slowly and probably annoying other drivers!

My car seat broke today as well, the harness is completely jammed and I had to kind of squeeze, tip and pull Tallulah out of it! Mamas and Papas have been quite good though and sending me a new one on tues. The new one is a lot more boring than the one I already have which is purple with multi coloured flowers all over it, so i feel a bit disappointed and would rather they would try and fix it. I don't want to waste products and if they throw it away when it gets sent back, well that would be a complete waste, I think this 'dumping' society that we exist in is disgraceful!

Anywayyyys, went back to my Mum's house and chilled out with her and Alister. We watched 'father of the bride 2' while Luly had a little nap, it was nice to watch some old school cheese! Ate about 50 hobnobs and then chips from the chipshop....treeeeeeat! Tallulah has been so happy today and playful, she makes me giggle! We had a lovely bath together this evening and she is asleep in our bed at the moment, I am watching some Mighty Boosh episodes and snuggling in with her.

Max is on his way home, can't wait to see him and give him a kissy kiss kiss! Going to do some cupcake baking tomorrow...yum yum! Might try some 'rose petal' cupcakes :-) keep you posted!

- Dra i love you so much .

x

Radio 1, Sewing & Vaccination Dilemmas.

Been feeling the urge to spend today on books! I bought a book on amazon about vaccinations called The Truth About Vaccines: Making the Right Decision for Your Child by Richard Halvorsen. I have held off Tallulah having them for the time being while I decide what to do, when i get in to reading the research there are naturally strong arguments for both sides but currently it is way leaning over to not having the vaccines! Hmmm the book looks quite good so I will have a read and let you know what I

think! For me, this is probably one of the hardest decisions to make as a parent so far.

I have also been wanting to purchase these two books as I feel a creative urge coming on!

This book a friend recommended to me is called Baby Stuff which is a Japanese Aranzi book. It has lovely things like nappy bags, nappies, bibs, toys etc to sew and make! I really like the idea of making lovely things for Tallulah. The only prob is time, i already feel stretched but think I could do some stuff when she is asleep to help me relax and chill!

This one has allsorts of sweety little dresses and shoes and bits and bobs to make in! My mum has a sewing machine so I might ask her if she would let me borrow it and learn how to use it!

Ahhh tonight Tallulah and I had dinner at my Dad's house with my 2 brothers and Lara, driving I tuned in to hear Alex Metric doing his show on Radio 1 (Max plays bass in his band). When I parked up at home I twittered to him that we were listening in the car and he gave Max, Tallulah and I a big shout out and told everyone that Max was his bass player! So chuffed to be made to feel a bit spesh'!

Good Day!

Is it tuesday today? Yes!

Max and I finished watching Battlestar Gallactica last night...OH MY..that series is the most incredible drama/sci-fi to grace our televisions, thats my opinion of course but i think its trueeeee! Wow I have been thinking about the ending all day and even dreamt about it! It is so brilliantly done and the spiritual messages to us all in it are just awesome! Such an adventure and journey watching it!

Max got a new gig today which is great news! A new band with a bit of 'clout' behind them from the record label apparantly, and straightaway 3 weeks of rehearsals which is good news and he is happy which is the most important thing of all! At first it was a bit scary worrying about how to manage with his job being quite unpredictable but we have learnt to be positive and trust that the universe is looking after us and we have been always okay, sometimes getting through on the skin of our teeth but nothing majorly terrible! Things seem to be getting better and better at the moment though! I am so proud of him and his attitude to work, he is like a bee, he works and focuses and makes stuff happen. He also happens to be awesome on the bass hehe! I haven't been to a gig for about a year due to the baby and i can't wait until I get to see him play again, I always forget how much I fancy him when he is on stage and untouchable! Last proper gig I was pregnant and didn't know yet, Groove Armada were headling Hogomany in Edinburgh and did the New Years countdown with all the fireworks and we were all on stage together, good times, but cold times! I am loving all the cosy baby snuggling that i am doing now instead! I was not always cut out for the darker side of the gigging/partying stuff!

I can hear Luly starting to snuffle and wake up so I must go to her! Thought I would put up a little pic of Max since I have talked about him most of this post!


love you max!

Baby-Led Weaning

As you know, Miss Tallulah is 5 months and about a week old, and for the past 3 weeks she has been getting increasingly more interested in what I am eating, to the point where having on my lap at mealtimes is getting tricky! She will reach forward and grab food on my plate and put it to her mouth and I end up wrestling bits off her and worrying she will touch something too hot! She is sitting up on her own for about half a minute and loves being in the high chair too, so Max and I felt that why not let her have a bit of her own food to taste!

I absolutely ADORE breastfeeding her and am not ready at all to sto yet, so the food thing is more for fun for the time being! We have been debating, do we mush or do baby-led! Everything about baby-led makes sense and seems to click in my head, so that is the direction we are heading. I worry a lot about doing the wrong thing by Tallulah so I have told myself in my head that I am not going to get too obsessed about the whole thing and I could do a mixture, if she has a spoon and mushy sometimes that is okay tooo!!

So...tonight we gave Tallulah some steamed brocolli florets and some carrot batons! To my shock and surprise she was straight in, picking them up and putting them to her mouth and chewing! I wasn't expecting her to swallow anything but a few bits most definitely went down! I think Max was a little concerned about her choking but we kept a careful eye and she was fine!